My clients love me because I call them on their bullshit. They know this is done from a place of love & with the intent of helping them reach their next level. This post is written with that same intention.
When you're a kid, you have very limited power. You live where you're told. You go to school where you're told. Your whole environment is chosen by other people. They make the rules.
Those experiences help create who you are. Sometimes they're good & sometimes it was shit. It was never 100% of either. As a child, you should have been loved and protected. Maybe that didn't happen. If that's the case, I am truly sorry & I am in no way discounting what you went through or your pain.
As an adult, YOU HAVE ALL THE POWER. You make the rules.
Your childhood experiences can hold you back, but there comes a time when you can't blame a shit life on your childhood. You either work on healing yourself & moving forward or you stay stuck & get to hold on to blame.
Healing & moving forward isn't easy & it takes time, but it's sooooo worth it.
I find the most powerful places to start are with forgiveness, cord cutting & belief work. You can do these things on your own or you can get help. These are all google-able.
Forgiveness can be the hardest. The more pain you're holding onto, the harder it is to let go. Forgive the situation & yourself. I find there's always some self blame or feeling that you were stupid for allowing it. Let that shit go.
Picture the situation & the people, let all the emotions come up, then imagine all the color & emotion draining from the picture until it's black & white. Then picture it disappear, turn to ash, float away or whatever way you want to get rid of it.
Do cord-cutting. You can find all kinds of YouTube videos that walk you through it.
Belief work is where you start moving forward. Think about what you want. Then list all the reasons You can't have it. Those are your current beliefs. Start looking for how they're not true. How can you change them to support what you want? Start looking for evidence that proves your new beliefs are correct.
My physical clutter game is on point, but digitally I'm a hoarder.
It's probably because I don't really see it. If I had almost 2,000 magazines in my living room, I'd freak out, but 2,000 emails and I hardly bat an eye... Until there's an email I need to find.
I will give myself credit, a few years ago I easily had over 7,000 emails. I feel like it was closer to 10,000 but either way it's too much.
I don't know about you, but I have a bad habit of thinking, "I'll read that later."
Truth is, there's only about 5 people I ever go back & read later. The rest just sit there. Piling up. There are people I've subscribed to that I don't think I've ever read anything they sent me, but I keep them because....
What if I need that specific information in some future mystery scenario!?!?!
Even if I did need that specific information I'm pretty sure I wouldn't know where to look for it in my email.
So, I started on my decluttering.
This is my decluttering strategy. I like it because you don't have to do it all at once & it gets rid of big chunks.
I like to start by sender. I search the sender. If I don't ever open their emails, I unsubscribe them delete them all and move on. If it's someone I read, I delete everything over 1 month old. Logins, receipts, and other important emails get sorted into folders.
The first time I did this I learned that I subscribed to a lot of people who weren't aligned with me (a big reason I never opened an email from them). I found out my inbox was filled with emails from people I had forgotten I ever subscribed to. I had saved a ton of replays that promised to let me in on "the secret" for something or another.
Second step in email decluttering is getting rid of all the starting soon and replay emails. If you're like me, that could be substantial.
Third I get rid of any sale or specials emails.
Finally, I get rid of all the emails that are more than 3 months old. This might bring up some anxiety, but honestly if you haven't read it by now you're not going to. You can always start with this step, but personally I have a harder time letting go if I start here.
So what has all this decluttering taught me??
I change a lot Every Year. You're with yourself all the time. Sometimes it's hard to notice, but each new level of you seeks out different things, people, messages. That's 100% normal.
I was resisting unsubscribing from Big Names. People who had, or claimed to have, the results I wanted, even though their messages or strategies felt off to me.
I am NOT going to go back and read it later.
I go through webinar phases. I sign up for them, then I don't watch 90% of them.
I'd love to know what decluttering your inbox teaches you.
Do you notice a theme? Is there a Big name you were afraid to unsubscribe? Was it easy for you? What did you keep? Leave a comment or send me an email about your decluttering experience.
We put off having the things we want because we always give ourselves a good reason why it can wait.
I don't know about you, but I'm pretty amazing at coming up with reasons why it can wait. I'll do it when I have more time. When I have more money. When I lose 15 pounds. When the weather's better. After I move. When I'm more stable. On my next birthday. After Christmas. Next month. When things calm down. After I pay off this debt. After I finish redoing this room. Once the snow melts.
As I go back and read those, they're not even good excuses. But they do the trick, because you still don't have or aren't doing the thing you want.
The magical thing about those reasons for not doing can go on forever, because there'll always be another reason to wait.
Christmas turns into New Years then it's someone's birthday, throw in a couple more holidays, anniversaries, someone having a baby or getting married and next thing you know we're back to Christmas.
I did that for years. I kept putting off quitting a job I hated. I literally fantasized about quitting & telling them what horrible people they were to work for. Oh, and there would be back up dancers complete with jazz hands. I talked about getting regular massages. I suppose you could argue a few times a year is regular. I talked about moving. Getting more tattoos. Traveling more. Hiring a cleaning lady, because I don't want to do it, but I want it to get done & so far the cleaning fairies haven't come to visit.
I talked about doing a lot of things, but I never got past talking.
The secret to getting what you want is stupidly simple. You have to decide you really want it, THEN....do something about it.
Granted, sometimes the Universe will give you a push. I got fired from the job I hated (because I asked for a day off. True story). I moved back to Minnesota, after my relationship fell apart. Did not see that coming.
When the Universe gives you a push, it doesn't always feel great. I prefer to do things on my terms. I have the most fantastic cleaning lady. I get monthly massages. I have an apartment that feels like me. Complete with all new stuff.
I didn't finally get those things by magic. I hired a cleaning lady. I schedule the massage appointments. I looked at a ton of apartments. I DID SOMETHING.
What have you been saying you want? What's something you can do to get that thing?
When I feel like I'm losing control, my instincts tell me to hold on to what I can salvage.
That lesson was made super clear during my move 2 years ago. In 2017 I went through a soul crushing breakup. I had been so sure he was my person. We had our future planned out, but in my head I had all the details. What my days would look like. The way I wanted my business to grow. Where we would live. The trips we'd take. Our kids. He was a huge part of every piece of my future.
Then, the person who I had planned my entire life with, cheated on me. I stood by him through A LOT, but cheating is my deal-breaker. There's no coming back from that, so I sold most of my things and moved in with my mom.
It was hard. I've had break-ups before, but never one where I couldn't support myself anymore.
I knew I couldn't stay where I was, and leaving meant I couldn't bring all my stuff. There wasn't room. I loved my stuff. I fucking worked hard for my things and this was the first time I wasn't just losing a person, I was losing my home.
I didn't even have time to mourn 1 loss before I had to get rid of my things(which felt like I was losing my identity).
I rented a container that could hold about a room and a half. A LOT less than what I had. My mom came down and helped me pack. In under a month, I found out my relationship was over, decided to move & had to have the majority of my stuff gone.
I went from, knowing things were stressed to feeling like I was losing everything that mattered to me.
I knew I was keeping my kitchen stuff. Cooking is my thing, it makes me feel like me (I have a ton of kitchen stuff). I also kept my office stuff, tvs, and most of my bedroom furniture. These were non-negotiable.
I had limited space. Living room furniture, guest room everything, bookshelves, books, movies, art, shoes, purses, clothes and a bunch of things I can't even remember anymore were sold, donated, or given away.
Some of it was easy to get rid of. SOME. Most of it I was desperately clinging to.
I have to give my mom credit, I was a bitch during this process. Pretty sure that's not strong enough of a word. I fought tooth & nail to keep things that now I wonder what the fuck I was thinking.
When things get scary, unsure or begin to fall apart most people's reaction is to cling tightly to something that gives them security.
We cling to jobs, relationships, things, and stories in an effort to create a feeling of safety. When everything is unknown, having the familiar makes you feel better.
Next time you feel yourself working your ass off to hold onto something ask yourself this one question....
What does keeping ____ in my life do for ME?
If the answer doesn't have something to do with the thing making you happy, it's time to let it go!
A lot of answers, and feelings, might come up. This is more a probably than a might.
It can feel hard to let things go in the moment, but it won't matter to you as much later on. If you're not ready, you can start by putting the item away & getting rid of it when you're ready.
Now I'm in a new place & I've replaced most of the things I fought so hard to bring with me. They don't feel like me anymore.
I've let go and I realized I was holding on because I was scared to start over from nothing. But sometimes that's exactly what you need.
It's July, so if your inbox looks anything like mine, it's filled with all kinds of messages telling you the year's half over!!!! You only have 6 months left to hit your goals!!!
I call Bullshit!
I've never been one to play by someone else's rules & I definitely don't believe there's only 1 way. That's true for timelines & goals!! Who says your goal has to fit into a year or a month? Who says the new year is a starting line?
To me that all seems a little ridiculous. (That's not saying I didn't spend years trying to fit all my stuff into predefined time slots) If you knew that you'd surpass your goal 1 month later than the date you set. Would you feel like you failed? Would you feel behind? I doubt it.
Stop letting July trick you into feeling anxious or behind.
What are you feeling you should do? Are you called to set a goal? To let go of something? To start something new or reinvent what you've been working on.
You don't need to wait for a Monday, a new moon, the next quarter or any other predetermined start day. Start whenever you feel the need to make change.
Now that we've covered the start, lets talk about the deadline.
You can set a goal without a deadline.
Counterintuitive, I know, but so worth it.
Take your goal and break it down into chapters, milestones (name it whatever you want)
This does 3 things.
-Gives you a specific area to focus on.
-Takes the pressure off
-Gives you freedom to change direction.
Treat goal setting like manifesting.
How are you feeling about your current goals?
Are you stressed? Are you scared? Scared is fine, different can feel scary. Leaving your comfort zone can be scary. If your goal feels unattainable, I have to ask if you're looking for a safe explanation of why you can't reach it.
Your feelings can show you where you're holding back or maybe where you need to set incremental goals. If your goal feels so big that you don't have any clue how to reach it, try reigning it in. Maybe pay off 1 bill instead of ALL your debt. Sign 1 client. Meet with people who are successful doing what you want. Forgive 1 person or heal 1 moment.
How will you feel when you reach that goal?
This is a great way to tell if your goal is in alignment with you. Does what you're doing give you any of those feelings? Are your actions working against those feelings? Recognize the difference between a temporary feeling & a feeling feeling.
I've set goals where I need to learn a new skill, so I feel overwhelmed, but that's temporary. I'm not gonna feel that after I know what I'm doing. I used to have a goal to do 3 periscopes a week. I hated doing them, I prefer youtube or FB lives. But I kept forcing myself to do them. That hate wasn't going away, so I switched my goal.
What does reaching the goal look like?
Are you resisting everything you think you should be doing? Are your steps to reaching the goal matching how it looks after hitting it? I can't tell you how many times I set a goal that was supposed to give me more time or make things easier, but that wasn't how I was setting myself up. More steps, more work, a bigger chunk of time.
Sometimes you have to work backwards. Take how you want it to be at the end & figure out how you get there. If you see yourself doing this thing 10 hours a week, how is it split up? Where are you getting help? What are the priorities? What is the extra?
Take a look at your goals. Revamp them. Tweak them. Throw them out & start over. Keep them just like they are. This is your reality that you're creating. No one makes the rules except you.
Have you ever thought about all the things we're told not to talk about?
Don't talk about money. It's not polite.
Don't talk too highly of yourself. You'll look conceited.
If you don't have something nice to say, don't say anything.
Don't talk about your problems. No one wants to hear that.
Don't tell anyone your wish or it won't come true.
I break all those rules.
Money isn't some shameful or secret topic for me. I talk about what I make, what I charge, what I spend, how much something cost. There's nothing wrong with that. It doesn't make me uncomfortable. I don't feel guilty. I'm not ashamed or embarrassed. I think it's bullshit that employers don't want their staff discussing what they make. In my experience it's usually because they don't want people asking for more money.
You don't want to sound conceited. I was helping my sister with her quarterly review & she got mad that I told her to talk about how amazing she is at her job. She was like "You can't say that." Why is it bad to know you're good at stuff and say that? It goes back to school. Get good grades, but don't be too smart. Don't say you know all the answers. They never understood why I wouldn't get nervous before interviews.
My answer was always the same "I'm damn good at what I do. If they don't hire me, it's their loss."
If you can't say something nice, don't say anything at all. Sometimes the bad needs to be addressed. I'm not saying you should try to hurt someone's feelings or say things to be cruel, but if something is fucked up...You HAVE to say something or it will never change. I love America's Got Talent, but sometimes in the beginning there's a contestant that is truly terrible. My first thought is why didn't their friends or family say something? You're never going to be good at everything. Some things will never be more than a hobby or passion. Ignoring that fact sets you up for failure.
Are you telling me that it's better to remain silent than to point out a downfall, mistake, or shortcoming?
It's bad manners to talk about your problems. It's a family matter. People don't want to hear that. You should be pleasant. This thinking came from a time where a lot of things were kept hidden. Domestic abuse. Unwed pregnancies that were shipped off to have babies in secret. Being gay. So many things were seen as unacceptable. There was shame attached. I'm pretty sure that's where "grin & bear it" came from.
Fuck that! It's bad for you to keep it all in. Talk about it. That's how get support & find solutions.
What bullshit rules have you been following that you're ready to toss?
I'm an HGTV junkie. Fixer Upper, Windy City Rehab, and Hidden Potential are some of my favorites.
I'm pretty sure it's ruined me for ever buying a house. Every house I see, the same thing happens. I walk in and immediately start renno-ing it in my head. If we knock down this wall. We can tear up this floor. We'll just change the kitchen layout & add a bathroom here. It doesn't even phase me that I have no clue how to do those things. I don't have a construction crew on stand-by (Shocking I know :D)
While I don't know how to redo an entire (or even a part of)house. HGTV does show you exactly how to transform your life from the eyesore that doesn't work for your needs into the amazing masterpiece that fits your needs and feels like your favorite pair of jeans.
Just like the home renovation shows, you start with what’s there. You've spent years creating the life you have. There's no reason to scrap all of it & start over from scratch.
Your life is the home at the beginning of the show. Maybe the bones are good, maybe you need new foundation. Maybe it's got some really cool features that have been covered by paint, drywall or vinyl flooring.
What are the things you love to do that you're good at? Identify the great relationships. The things you're already doing that make you happy. What do you do that makes you feel like you? What parts of you have you been ignoring or hiding?
They don’t tear the whole thing down. They get rid of what doesn’t work and build on what does. They design based on the family's wants and needs. They design to match the homeowners style. Even similar houses become dramatically different because of the colors, materials & layout that is chosen. The final product is something that looks totally new & they love.
What is it you really want? How do you want to spend your time? Where do you want to live? What are your deal breakers? What do you want to eliminate? What do you want more of?
There is one part of designing your dream life that is much harder to do in remodeling. When you're designing your dream life you can try things out. If you don't like them, get rid of it & try something else.
I have always been a procrastinator. But, I don't procrastinate for everything.
I wrote every school paper the morning it was due. Any party or get together I've ever thrown was fully planned minimum a week before the date. Cleaning the house for company is a scramble to finish before anyone arrives. Packing for trips, always last minute. My nephew's birthday is this month. I got party details yesterday. Within 30 minutes, I already knew how I'm doing the cake & what food we're serving, & the theme (fishes).
Maybe you're thinking "Everybody procrastinates. How does this help me?"
Procrastination tells you a lot of things. It can show you what you're aligned with. It gives you an emotion you're depending on. It will tell you what to delegate. It will highlight your strengths. You just have to dig a little.
Make a list of the things you procrastinate.
For each item list 2-3 reasons you put it off.
Is it because you hate doing it? (That's laundry for me)
Is it because it's so easy for you, you figure you'll have plenty of time? Next thing you know the deadline is HERE!
Maybe you're hoping someone will do it for you?
Or it's the feeling you get from knocking it out last minute? (Look how amazing I am! An adrenaline rush. You get to be the victim aka no one helps me)
Now use what you've learned.
I'm not going to tell you to set a false deadline, because that shit doesn't work! I've tried that advice. You know it's not real, so it's no big deal when it passes.
The stuff you procrastinate because you hate doing it, you're not good at it, or it's not a strength. Delegate that shit. There is nothing wrong with getting help.
The stuff you put off because it's easy or one of your strengths. Move it up in your plan. Multi-task while doing it. Do it while waiting for another component.
Maybe procrastinating triggers a feeling you want. Praise for how you managed to get it done in time with so many other things on your plate. A sense of accomplishment. Pride. A memory. An adrenaline rush.
If procrastinating doesn't bother you, KEEP DOING IT!
I always wrote my papers last minute because when I did it that way, the words would just come to me. It was easier. I like that I can't overthink. I still do this. I write my emails right before I send them. I wrote my whole website in 1 day.
Let your procrastination work for you.
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Have you ever felt like your spending was out of control?
That's exactly how I felt in January. About 14 months ago my life turned into a whirlwind of a shit show. I had a ton of debt, my 10 year relationship ended out of the blue (seriously, I never saw it coming), in a month I had sold all of my stuff, broke my lease & moved home. I was BROKE.
I've never been that broke in my life & it was scary as shit.
Luckily, my mom let me stay with her rent free, I got a job my second week back & I started signing clients again. After a couple months, my bank accounts were once again in the positive. I was able to start paying down my debt & I paid off my car. I even had extra money to go out.
It felt good to have money again. It felt even better that everything I wanted wasn't an automatic NO. So I started saying YES.
At first it was yes to things I needed. Clothes for winter. A hair cut. Car upkeep. Then it was things I had been putting off. New bras, good makeup, glasses, jeans. Finally it was random things. New kitchen gadgets, luggage, jewelry.
It got to the point where I was ordering so many things, I would get packages & have no idea what was in them. Even worse, I'd use it once then stick it in a pile & move onto the next thing.
I decided I needed to take a break from spending.
The first week was hard. Of course, as soon as I decided I wasn't buying, it seemed like everything went on sale ( I love a good sale). But, I didn't buy anything.
It got easier pretty fast.
Instead of buying new things, I started using the things I already had. I read books that had been sitting on my Kindle for months. Using the masks & lotions that I'd forgotten I owned. I finished some of the courses I had bought, but never had the time to do. I meditated more.
I had more time. I never realized how much time I spent scrolling through websites searching for things to buy.
What I learned
I buy things...
To reward myself.
When I feel like crap.
Late at night when I'm bored
When I feel stuck.
Sometimes, just because it seems interesting.
Retail therapy at it's finest.
I was also reminded that when I'm not in such a hurry to buy things, I kick ass at manifesting them.
This month I wanted a pedicure & a couple days later my mom asked me to do a mani/pedi day her treat. I won a free oracle card reading from one of my favorite people. One of the courses I own released new free bonuses that helped me solve an issue I had been stuck on. I've had drinks & dinners bought for me. And I wasn't even trying.
Is there something you do that you're pretty sure is holding you back? Take a break from it & let me know how it goes.
I wasn't one of those fortunate people who knew exactly what she wanted.
The only think I KNEW was I couldn't keep living my life the way I was. I wasn't happy. I didn't know how to fix it. I felt stuck.
I needed a change, but a change to what?? That was a big question.
Maybe you know exactly what you're working towards. If that's the case I'm thrilled for you! But if you're like me & aren't sure yet... I want you to know, THAT'S OK. You're not stuck.
I promise you have a powerful place to start from. You have an idea of how you want to feel. You probably KNOW a lot of details. Start there. The rest will come to you.
You know the phrase “dress for the job you want”? It’s the same with creating the life you want.
Be the version of you that already has those things.
Maybe you want calmer mornings. You want a boss you like. You want to be your own boss. You want to feel financially secure. You want to feel valued, loved, sexy, adventurous or centered. You want a couple close friends that you know you can count on.
I bet you have parts of your life pictured. I'm so sure, I would never go to Target again if I'm wrong (Target is my happy place)
Start with the things you know you want & answer the following questions...
What does she do? Take chances, yoga, wash off her makeup EVERY night, eats better food, does creative work, work as part of a team or alone, Get her hair done at a salon, have a maid, go to dinner by herself, public speaking...
How does she think? Do setbacks discourage her, does she see opportunities, what stories does she tell herself.
How does she feel? Is she relaxed, confident, successful, centered, welcoming
How can you step into that version of you now? Say YES more, let people help you, try new things, practice being confident. What does she do that you can do now? What new stories can you begin telling yourself? What can you do that gives you those feelings?
The more you step into the version of You that already has those things, the easier it is to get them. You know what decisions are aligned with what you want. You put yourself in situations that allow opportunities to show up. You already believe you are worthy.
Intuitive clairaudient healer with a gift for getting to the point & making things seem doable.